This has been how I have felt about myself and clothes since I was a teenager. When you are a teenager and you overhear your father telling your aunt and uncle that you never have a hope of not being a larger person it is hard to have much self-esteem and confidence with one's body. At least for me it has been a struggle.
Most people think I do not like to shop for clothes because I am and have been a tomboy, but it is not true. I hate trying on clothes and then subsequently having to look in the mirror to see how they look on me. This has gotten worse for me since having had two children and no longer having that pre-baby body. I hide in a corner when changing at the gym where I work out so no one can see me. While trying on clothes at the mall, I would not even step out of the change room to show the sales clerk who was helping me what the clothes looked like.
I hate that feeling when you especially love an item of clothing only to try it on and have it not fit. It feels like even the clothes are laughing at you saying you were ridiculous for even thinking they would fit and look good in the first place. People are always talking about going here and there to go shopping and I wish they could understand how hard it is to enjoy shopping for an article of clothing when you dislike your body. Needless to say, shopping for clothes is one of my least favorite things to do!
Thought of the day: What happens if you get a paper cut from a Get Well card?
Quote of the day: A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval. Mark Twain