When I woke up I felt such overwhelming sadness that she is no longer on this earth. This feeling stayed with me throughout the rest of the day and I struggled with trying to figure out the meaning of the dream (if there is one). I do not know if I had this dream because she was reaching out to me to let me know that she is doing ok, or if I had this dream out of guilt because as friends we drifted apart over the years. We reconnected before her passing but I wish so badly that I could have had one last hear to heart conversation. She was there for me through some very tough times!
The hope we had was that one day we might even teach in the same school as colleagues. As I write this it brings tears to my eyes, maybe it is the wine I am drinking that is to blame for that. I would like to think that I am still connecting with those people in my life who have passed on as I often have dreams about my Grandma.
Perhaps this is normal for everybody. It is more the feelings the dreams bring up that is the difficult part for me. The dreams themselves at the time are wonderful, I do not ever want to wake up because of how real they seem. I am glad that the connection is till there with those I love, even if I can only have it in a dream!
Thought of the day: If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call the resulting company Fed Up?
Quote of the day: A #2 pencil and a dream can take you anywhere. Joyce Meyer (author)